Is it not the worst of human flaws that when we are in the most need for rest that we find it the most difficult to do so? I believe it is.
I do have a lot on my mind, however, and that might have something to do with it.
Exams are within hours, and my entire academic future seems to weigh on them. So, I will be spending every walking moment from tomorrow morning to Sunday night studying. But tonight, just when I need rest, I find myself still wide awake at 1:00 AM! I enjoy the nighttime, but not when I would rather be sleeping.
Another reason I can't seem to catch a ride on a slumber cloud is because of all this, quite frankly crushing, loneliness. I am not alone, yet I feel isolated. How odd. I'm trying to keep myself distracted, but I am too clever for myself and I see right through my own efforts.
I'm very fortunate to have the friends that I do, because without them, I honestly have no clue where I would be. They put up with my ramblings almost as well as a blog does. But, blogs don't take you by the shoulders and tell you to GET A HOLD OF YOURSELF! *SLAP* However much you might need it.
And then there are the relatives. Batsh!t crazy, the lot of them, and persistant to boot. They add ten times more stress than they're worth, just by being in the same room.
I knew bloging would make me feel better! I can feel my eyelids drooping, thank Goodness!
Goodnight, all of you still awake out there.
Allons-y!
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